Times are changing

The human mind is a weird, but not so wonderful place. My life is so good since after Christmas, seen my old and unbeaten mates, saw my family and left all my problems behind and somehow they sorted themselves out. But why cant i shake this feeling of loneliness. Im not depressed, rather im bloody happy fella :D

Still now and again when I see people wonder the snow filled sheets with their other half's and partners, its then when you feel the cold the most, when you seem to relsihe how alone you really feel without another linking your arms or holding your hand, its you against the world.

Which brings me to new late years releoualions! lets bring by making a list shall we.

1) lose weight... yea, its been there for a few years now, but still i can make this happen this year, I know because its 2010 baby :D

2) work harder, yes its happening! im in the library now, im on my break shhhhhh!

3) find a stable relatsionship, you never know what may happen!

4) do more

5) drink less on nights out, those who know me this may or may not be a key point :D

6) Enjoy the simple things/ take more risks

If i can do all this, then life should be SWEET!!!

thats all for now folks!

I feel good!

From all my other posts I can say with pride... Felixstowe has put me right again. Nothing like kicking back and chilling with the old, and best crew, gotta love it! With depression and sorrow now lifting its time to look a head to what the new years gonna bring me!

Ill update again soon this is just a quick massage saying... Johnnys back baby! bring on life :D

Roll the dice again...

Who buys christmas cards of there pets? really people isnt that a bit to far. never mind what floats your boat i guess. Back to the point go certain gifts for that certain someone, which I think was quite good. It doesn't really matter anyway my bet she will just rid of it anyway, but i felt like i had to get it anyway, no point in giving up, ill it to the end i guess, though the pain and sorrow i will go! This blog helps me though, wrting it for the zero people who read my blog helps clear the mind that little big more and helps though the bad and the blue. Tomorrow is when im giving her the gifts, but im not sure if she will be in so I guess ill have to give it to her house mates... oops if that happens! Well whatever happens ill put on here anyway, Dont get your hopes up though, Love has something against me!

Lyrics of the post -

Yesterday,
All my troubles seemed so far away,
Now it looks as though they're here to stay,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Suddenly,
I'm not half the man I used to be,
There's a shadow hanging over me,
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.

Why she
Had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say.
I said,
Something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday,
Love was such an easy game to play,
Now I need a place to hide away,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Why she
Had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say.
I said,
Something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday,
Love was such an easy game to play,
Now I need a place to hide away,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm-mm-mm...

Chin up my friends... you could be me

Last thoughts of the night

As I once again fall into sleep the same thoughts rush though my mind, making me think that I may suffer from a sort of depression? but hey im sure im once again thinking to hard. I leave this post with the lyrics from a song which i think can show how I feel when I get the mid-night blues, The Beatles have got it right! so im off again... alone

"Your day breaks, your mind aches
You find that all her words of kindness linger on
When she no longer needs you

She wakes up, she makes up
She takes her time and doesn't feel she has to hurry
She no longer needs you

And in her eyes you see nothing
No sign of love behind the tears
Cried for no one
A love that should have lasted years

You want her, you need her
And yet you don't believe her when she says her love is dead
You think she needs you

And in her eyes you see nothing
No sign of love behind the tears
Cried for no one
A love that should have lasted years

You stay home, she goes out
She says that long ago she knew someone but now he's gone
She doesn't need him

Your day breaks, your mind aches
There will be times when all the things she said will fill your head
You won't forget her

And in her eyes you see nothing
No sign of love behind the tears
Cried for no one
A love that should have lasted years"

Peace, and better luck to you my friends!

Does anybody realy know?

If anyone can help me on this one ill pay good money! The famous topic which all man have been asking since we where living in caves, woman!

This year has been an odd one for me on this front. One girl comes to mind right away! I like to see myself as a nice guy which has morals and respect for people, which i rarely break. Until this term at uni that is. Never before did i think i would becomes loves fool...

For weeks my life completely changed, i was going right out of my way just to see this girl, to speck to her and just to hug her at the end of the day. I bend over backwards, i skip lectures, skip meals, skip anything else im doing just to say go into town with her or just to pick something up, its like shes has a hold over me. She keeps pushing me away, but i know she feels for me, trust me you don't want to know how I know!

So that's where i hit the cross roads my friends, do i keep chasing a dream which more then likely end up with me crushing and burning or just give up and lose my greatest desire?

I wish woman would come with a manual, or better yet just say what you want and stop playing games! Love hurts, end of.

The start... or is it?

Im gonna try this blogging, you never know it may help!
for now iv got two essays to so ill let you all find out more about me on a later date/

in a way do i want people to read this?